Originally I was going to do a post about going out for meals and drinks (cause my nice boyfriend took me out this weekend ;)). But then I decided that I needed to do a post more closer to my heart, I think the Christmas movies are making me emotional. So today’s post is about the wonderful people who are my family and friends.
You see sometimes I sit and think about how much I rely on my family and friends, especially my family. I suppose everyone does, but unfortunately for my family and friends they have to deal with me. That includes what I call my diabetic temper tantrums = as Jessie J says in her song silver lining “when I lose my mind, when I’m a total mess.”
Diabetes isn’t easy, it is like a roller-coaster that I won’t ever be able to get off, not even if I want to…which I do sometimes but then I don’t cause its shaped who I am today. It has also most probably affected my family and those closest to me a lot. So I should probably apologise to them now for being a bit of a stroppy moo at times. I should also thank them, I wish I could do more than thank them and show them how much they mean to me because its them who have sat listening to me moan about my diabetes or forgiven me when my sugars have been either high or low and I’ve lost my temper.
That happens a lot to be honest, I’ve always been the most “emotional” person in the world probably, so small things can sometimes trigger me off. But then you add a high sugar level to that or a low sugar level and in my head everything is a lot worse than it is. Sometimes it feels like someone is pushing a certain emotion into my head and that I just need some sort of realise from it whether that is crying or screaming/throwing a strop towards the person nearest to me. There is that saying that you can’t choose your family but to be honest I couldn’t have asked for a better family. They’ve been there for me no matter what and I can rely on them even when I’m being a completely and utter cow. They’ve all done so much for me; gone to training session to learn about my diabetes, taken me to clinics and sat with me for hours on end, and listened to me moan. They probably will never know how it feels to be a diabetic but the sure as well try the hardest to understand and then they put up with me and all the drama I bring.
Then you have my lovely boyfriend and closest friends. The people who have also had to learn about diabetes and what to do if my sugars go too low or too high. Who have my back when I’m out drinking and I know that if anything happened they would get me back home in one piece. If I’m honest the weekend was a fine picture, went out with James (the boyfriend) and blood sugars went a little bit high…only a tad and I had a strop, for no reason. I apologised afterwards but still I shouldn’t have done it, and I know I shouldn’t but unfortunately that is what high blood sugar levels do to me…as soon as they get over 10 really. But then I realised that night how much he has learnt about my diabetes in the time I’ve been with him and that is why I love my family and friends so much because they put the effort in to learn things that they don’t have to. Just because I’m a diabetic doesn’t mean they have to learn the ins and outs of if but I suppose they do it because they love me and don’t want anything bad to happen to me.
But there is one person who I should thank the most really and that my mum. The person who puts up with me moaning the most, going to her with diabetic questions because she’s a nurse and then getting annoyed with her nursey views when I don’t want to hear what she is saying. The person who stayed with me in hospital when I was diagnosed and looks after me when I’m ill, loosing sleep but never moaning about it…well not to me anyway. Although I probably drive her mad sometimes and she does me as well, I don’t think I would be the person I am today without her and I wouldn’t have such good control without her either.
So I suppose this post is my way of sort of thanking them although it will never really show them how much everything they have done means to me. But it really does mean a lot. They all deserve the biggest thank you in the world and if it wouldn’t take so long I would name them individually but they all know who they are.
Family is not an important thing. It’s everything – Michael J. Fox
The greatest healing therapy is friendship and love – Hubert H. Humphrey, Jr